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Jan. 20th, 2004 04:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mamadebIt's not that I don't have work. It's that I don't have *much*, so I don't feel motivated.
Okay.
One of the panels I was on was one on Order of the Phoenix. And I totally hogged the panel. I mean, I stepped on other people and shouted things out, and when I didn't, I whispered to the woman sitting next to me. I was really, really bad. There's no excuse.
Except. I kept getting all these *ideas*. And, just like I was a precept hog in college, I had to keep shouting these out.
And only one stuck with me. Maybe because I didn't get a chance to blurt it out.
We were talking about Snape. And this came to me. Columbine.
Think about it. Snape was a classic geek/nerd - the unattractive, greasy, possibly less-than-hygenic kid who is all about studying and D&D or Star Trek or computers or, in his case, potions and Dark Arts. And he's with the unpopular crowd if he's with one at all.
And then we get James, the prince of their year. Handsome, talented, intelligent, athletic, and he hangs around with Sirius who is even handsomer and brighter (top of the class without studying) and from an aristocratic family, to boot. And Remus may be quiet, but he's also bright and popular. And he's a prefect, too. And anyone else had better be like Peter - sycophantish. These *are* the popular crowd, at least in their own minds.
And how do they get their kicks? By teasing the unpopular kid, the nerd. Now, this goes on in every high school. It's only worse at Hogwarts because of magic.
While I don't think it's *just* because of James and Sirius - that's far too simplistic, and I can believe he was a nasty kid - in fact, we know he was. And prejudiced and full of pride in his own pure blood. Anyway, while I doubt it was the only reason, I'm sure it was a factor in his choice to follow Voldemort.
Why he decided to go over to Dumbledore, I don't know. Unless. Unless Dumbledore was fighting to keep him, gaining his trust and respect in anyway he could, during his entire school career. And Snape came back when he saw what Voldemort was - that even there, he was probably despised as a kid or lower class or something.
Okay.
One of the panels I was on was one on Order of the Phoenix. And I totally hogged the panel. I mean, I stepped on other people and shouted things out, and when I didn't, I whispered to the woman sitting next to me. I was really, really bad. There's no excuse.
Except. I kept getting all these *ideas*. And, just like I was a precept hog in college, I had to keep shouting these out.
And only one stuck with me. Maybe because I didn't get a chance to blurt it out.
We were talking about Snape. And this came to me. Columbine.
Think about it. Snape was a classic geek/nerd - the unattractive, greasy, possibly less-than-hygenic kid who is all about studying and D&D or Star Trek or computers or, in his case, potions and Dark Arts. And he's with the unpopular crowd if he's with one at all.
And then we get James, the prince of their year. Handsome, talented, intelligent, athletic, and he hangs around with Sirius who is even handsomer and brighter (top of the class without studying) and from an aristocratic family, to boot. And Remus may be quiet, but he's also bright and popular. And he's a prefect, too. And anyone else had better be like Peter - sycophantish. These *are* the popular crowd, at least in their own minds.
And how do they get their kicks? By teasing the unpopular kid, the nerd. Now, this goes on in every high school. It's only worse at Hogwarts because of magic.
While I don't think it's *just* because of James and Sirius - that's far too simplistic, and I can believe he was a nasty kid - in fact, we know he was. And prejudiced and full of pride in his own pure blood. Anyway, while I doubt it was the only reason, I'm sure it was a factor in his choice to follow Voldemort.
Why he decided to go over to Dumbledore, I don't know. Unless. Unless Dumbledore was fighting to keep him, gaining his trust and respect in anyway he could, during his entire school career. And Snape came back when he saw what Voldemort was - that even there, he was probably despised as a kid or lower class or something.
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Date: 2004-01-20 06:06 pm (UTC)Huh. Maybe his parents were killed. I can see that. And then he married Lily and they had a baby. Certainly, those should be maturing things, although we know they often not. I don't get that feeling about James. He seemed to be a true husband and father, despite his youth.
Remus has had a lifetime of pain and loneliness - all of his close friends were dead or incarcerated for killing his friends for a third of his life. And he always was a bit more mature than the others. Not perfectly, no, but no one in that universe is perfect, praise Rowling.
Sirius, though. Sirius never had to get beyond that stage. He ran away from his problems at first - from his own family, from being the Potters' secret killer, from Azkaban and then from the rest of the wizarding world (sometimes it *is* the right choice. :)) He used to be handsome and brilliant and as aristocratic as Draco Malfoy. He's not anymore, and he wants to be fifteen again, and carefree and with is best friend.
I find it interesting that both Sirius and Snape only see James when they see Harry - and then only certain parts of James. And those are the parts that Harry doesn't have. He doesn't get into trouble for the fun of it; he doesn't flout rules just because he can; he *isn't* arrogant and insensitive. He's also *not* perfect. He has poor study habits, he's impulsive and he has a deep well of anger and violence inside of him. And all of that is going to bite him in the end.
I do wonder what will happen if and when Snape sees Lily's eyes on James' son, and realizes he's not the same person at all.