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Aug. 12th, 2003 12:08 pmI just made two appointments. One is just to my internist, because I'm overdue for a checkup for my diabetes and so on. And to tell him that all I have is a mild inflammation in my right arm that isn't going *away* but I'm not quitting pakua.
Why aren't I quitting pakua? Because when I look at myself in the mirror, I see a different body. It's still soft and fat, but underneath is a layer of muscle, and some things that were convex are now flat, and somethings that were flat (not many, I grant you) are now concave. And while my stomach is still bigger than my breasts, it's not as much bigger. I feel them when I lie on my stomach now, even after my period is over, and that's amazing.
And I made an appointment to get my face lasered. After years of first electrolyisis and then waxing, I may be getting rid of one of nature's cruelest tricks on me. It won't be cheap, but it will look better and I will feel better. I'm a good candidate because I have dark hair and fair skin, and it works on the contrast. And I'm getting a couple of white hairs now, so I really can't wait.
In other personal news :), I've given up on the shampoo bars. Yes, my hair combed without conditioner, and it did feel thicker, but. It was also *sticky*, no matter how long I rinsed it, and stiff, and lifeless. And when I combed it, the comb came out sticky and there would be stuff on it that looked, on a dark comb, more or less like the shampoo bar.
Ick.
So, I'm back with regular shampoo and conditioner, and my hair feels thinner, but at least it's *clean*.
Why aren't I quitting pakua? Because when I look at myself in the mirror, I see a different body. It's still soft and fat, but underneath is a layer of muscle, and some things that were convex are now flat, and somethings that were flat (not many, I grant you) are now concave. And while my stomach is still bigger than my breasts, it's not as much bigger. I feel them when I lie on my stomach now, even after my period is over, and that's amazing.
And I made an appointment to get my face lasered. After years of first electrolyisis and then waxing, I may be getting rid of one of nature's cruelest tricks on me. It won't be cheap, but it will look better and I will feel better. I'm a good candidate because I have dark hair and fair skin, and it works on the contrast. And I'm getting a couple of white hairs now, so I really can't wait.
In other personal news :), I've given up on the shampoo bars. Yes, my hair combed without conditioner, and it did feel thicker, but. It was also *sticky*, no matter how long I rinsed it, and stiff, and lifeless. And when I combed it, the comb came out sticky and there would be stuff on it that looked, on a dark comb, more or less like the shampoo bar.
Ick.
So, I'm back with regular shampoo and conditioner, and my hair feels thinner, but at least it's *clean*.