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[mamadeb]

I *hate* them. I do. And I hate that I'm sitting here not working and holding back tears, which is not a good thing when one is suppoosed to be bright and pleasant on the phone and in person. And I'm snapping at the agents and the other staff and this is bad.

Part of it is that I had a rotten night (note to self: overeating is *bad*. Overeating and drinking wine is very bad.) Part is the load of work I have to do.

Part of it is politics.

And a large part of it is that I've written this four times and deleted most of it because I don't want to argue. I'm not *good* at arguing because I get far too emotional and all the facts go away.

And I'm left with feeling frustrated that, because my opinions are more to the right (which is *so* weird for me - in most areas I'm pure liberal), and I can't express them well, and because I don't want to offend anyone or get into arguments, I can't *say* anything here.

It's not that peoople disagree with me. It's that the people who do are more vocal than those who don't, and I'm not sure why this is so, except it's a lot easier to express a common opinion than it is to express an unpopular one, and war is never popular, nor should it be.

I just took two people whom I like and respect off my default view. Just until I'm a bit saner.