I felt the same way about one of my RP friends. We shall call him Bob. We talked all the damn time on AIM and in the OOC. I tried to deny that I had a crush on him, but it didn't work. I was terrified that if I told him, something bad would happen.
You see, the previous "internet crush" I'd had ended badly. I never told John outright ("OMG I LUV U LOLOL") or anything like that... We just talked a lot and about things he wouldn't tell his girlfriend cos she was an awful BITCH. I told him she was an awful bitch, too. Then she read our chat logs, beat the shit out of him, and gave him a knife to slit his wrists with. He did. Luckily, his roommate found him and took him to the hospital. He ended up in a psychiatric care facility (aka loony bin).
I kept logging on to that ICQ account, just in case John ever came back. His now ex-girlfriend still had his passwords and would log on to taunt me under his SN, telling me he was dead, telling me that he hated me, that she hated me, etc etc. I cried so much for so long.
That sucked.
Back to Bob... One day, after about a year of talking, he got all weird and wouldn't talk to me. I forced him to tell me what was wrong.
So, long story short: Reciprocal crush, he came to visit, we clicked, it's been four years now and we're getting married.
I know that we are the exception to the rule, but it never hurts to try.
Well, that's not true... Trying hurts sometimes, but you may regret it forever if you don't say anything.
Now for the epilogue...
I left a little message on my website in memory of John, if he was even out there... A year after he was taken to the bin, he went to my website. He hadn't even touched a computer for months after they let him out of the bin. John saw the mention of him. He e-mailed me. I didn't trust it at first, but he proved it was him. I was so happy.
John ended up coming to visit me, too. We got along famously. It was ridiculous how good we were together... But I was already with Bob. As I already mentioned, we're getting married next year, so that ended up okay.
Eh... I don't even know if that was a happy ending or not. Take it as you will.
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Date: 2005-10-28 06:45 am (UTC)You see, the previous "internet crush" I'd had ended badly. I never told John outright ("OMG I LUV U LOLOL") or anything like that... We just talked a lot and about things he wouldn't tell his girlfriend cos she was an awful BITCH. I told him she was an awful bitch, too. Then she read our chat logs, beat the shit out of him, and gave him a knife to slit his wrists with. He did. Luckily, his roommate found him and took him to the hospital. He ended up in a psychiatric care facility (aka loony bin).
I kept logging on to that ICQ account, just in case John ever came back. His now ex-girlfriend still had his passwords and would log on to taunt me under his SN, telling me he was dead, telling me that he hated me, that she hated me, etc etc. I cried so much for so long.
That sucked.
Back to Bob... One day, after about a year of talking, he got all weird and wouldn't talk to me. I forced him to tell me what was wrong.
So, long story short: Reciprocal crush, he came to visit, we clicked, it's been four years now and we're getting married.
I know that we are the exception to the rule, but it never hurts to try.
Well, that's not true... Trying hurts sometimes, but you may regret it forever if you don't say anything.
Now for the epilogue...
I left a little message on my website in memory of John, if he was even out there... A year after he was taken to the bin, he went to my website. He hadn't even touched a computer for months after they let him out of the bin. John saw the mention of him. He e-mailed me. I didn't trust it at first, but he proved it was him. I was so happy.
John ended up coming to visit me, too. We got along famously. It was ridiculous how good we were together... But I was already with Bob. As I already mentioned, we're getting married next year, so that ended up okay.
Eh... I don't even know if that was a happy ending or not. Take it as you will.